new gadget

oh lupa nak update.
my new gadget...(gadget la sangat..haha)
go! gadget go! macam inspector gadget. :D

i'm back to basic. Film camera. hehe..
Infact this is just a toy camera. No batteries, just basic.
will jump into swimming pool and will take some sexy pictures..OOOOppppss...
Haha no la. We all wearing this conservative swimming wear..no bikinis...(*sigh*)
Sadly HAHA!.
will show this photo result in 1 month time....(since it film camera..hehehe)

UPNM

UPNM
Duty, Honour and Intergrity.

Hopefully everything will go perfect. Thanks to all the soldiers for your cooperation. Although you all were so busy almost everytime. (It is so hard to get you guys for the evaluation, REALLY!). Congrats! to all, dah tauliah dan jadi pegawai tentera. Thanks to Mejar Zulmadi, Prof Su, Dr. Wan Aida, En. Hazali, Cik Ummul Fahri, and my UKM friends, Kak Lia, Yana, Nana, Kak Manja, Aju and Aimi. Thanks from the beginning and till the end. Thanks to Mama and Abah Love u alls!!! ( no more breakdown! hopefully).

Pictures of the second meets with the soldiers....

thumbs up means everything okay right?

tekun jer enumerator buat kerja

ni dah nak dekat akhir-akhir....around 12.30 am.

He is the last subject of the first day of evaluation, he slept through at the hall while waiting for his turn, he end up being the last person and guess what? really great reading for bone density. One of the best, and the best is 5 point something... Haha..tapi dia tak leh show off cause there's nobody else there. (^.~)...
Kitaorang balik kul 1.00am..... Letihnyer...
Tapi semuanya dah habis dan berbaloi........
the second day, pon sama balik pukul 1, tapi 15 org tak datang...so sad..........
tapi tak pe, i know that they all busy.


It is so hard to be an intellectual. Keep on Going!!!!! (^.^) Berusaha!!!!

glorious food

hmmm masakan Indonesia???
pasti keren...!!
First time cuba masak hijau sama tauhu bachem..emm sedap..
makasih pada Kak Lia sama Pak Cucu...keren bangat!.

dot itu titik

feeling sick.

rasa sakit!

blurrrrrrr

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sangat blur..........................................................

nantikan list itu

Lagu Alanis Morissette
21 Things I Want In A Lover
Dengar lagu Alanis Morissette yang tajuknya 21 Things I Want In A Lover..
Cewah,, rasa macam nak buat list jer...
ok ni nak pikir secara mendalam ye..
nantikan. =)
ye ke? macam real jer nak buat list. Haha rasanya tak. Biarkanlah..

my feeling...

undiscovered

i'm not lost...not losttt...

hide all the bruises and damages

i like this song and james morrison is the best!

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

applied nutritition

food culture and food ethnics....
kelas dah jadi macam culture seminar
gua makan Libyan food..
haha sedap gak dia punya dessert.
thanks to salima and ashmisa.. dapat gak merasa.
teaching project in progress..

just like a star

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

my sweetheart

I'm with my sweetheart at the library,
from now on I will love you always....
dear sweetheart,
I'm nothing without you...my sweetheart is my book(s).
I declare we are couple. I'm not single.
Lepas ni saper kata aku tak der boifren..
Excuse me, I ada berlambak kat library and kedai buku...HAHAHAHA..
tak desperate pon.
Memang aku memilih...bak kata cik Fara.. Adoi betul la pulak..

Tapi tak pe..~~biarkanlah, biarkan aku hidup sendirian~~ macam lagu Krisdayanti.

Like what Mariah Carey sing ~Mariah: Baby, won't you be my sweetheart (my sweetheart), We can share a story book romance~ Hahahahahaha..

First lecture of Metadology class...

"swarm yourself with books"


me said ~~~ I'm cuddling with my books-Amy
I pun nak quote diri sendiri gak..

nonsense itu mengarut

Here I am,
Writing nonsense,
I always digress, I'm sorry.
I mean, just look at me now. (If u really can, I salute you!) (^.~) I always got carried away somehow.
Like everything happen in my life, I took full responsibility to it.
I don't want to talk about it, simple, because I don't want to. But deep down I know, that someday I'll have to talk about it too. So I am letting it go for now. (burrr talk about what ekceli?)


~~~
Just leave me alone right now. I don't felt like I belong anymore with my blog. It bugging me all the times that my writing will hurt others. Let me write not noticing people would judge me.
Let me feel what I once felt again.


I still remember in my old days (I mean the past, not the present, old, tua. Will it take an intellectual to understand me???) =P , that I don't want to grow up. The grown ups had too many problems and responsible, I don't know when I'll be ready, cause I never was ready. Blame me for that. Everything I had, or what I'd been through was never really thought me anything. I know, I am not being grateful. I mean I forgot to be grateful. And now I am grateful. Thanks.
Thank you Allah, dear family and friends.


Dear mama and abah,
Your daughter, without her knowing that she already 'tua'. But she still acting like a spoil kid I know somebody said. Haha..Guilty. I know myself spoiled. I don't blame anyone for that.
Blame me, I got this fragile heart not so strong that it will break 100 times but still I will patched them together again (as u know patched things are soooo in trend right now, sorry i digress). Mama, I'm just like you. I don't know how to stand tall ( imean not the way you stand, but the resemblence are more to the heart spirit kind of things. hihi). I cry when I got mad. I cried in almost things I did or happen to me.
You know I always knew that the 'power of the positive thinking'. I used to practise it, but I sound and look more like a phsycotic freak or whatever. Ya, cause I will look at the mirror and tell myself I was strong, pretty and skinny. Which was vice versa. I am strong sometime, but not most of the time. I need support most of the time. But I really do miss myself being 'the miss independent to the fullest' I'd once be. It took time to heals what is hurts. But it changed me more than I thought it was. It didn't changed me for the good. I became bad I know.
Now what left of me? I decided to live my life the way I had chose. I rules my life now as I living by myself and not living in others.



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Recently my friends fave topic was 'mencari cinta'. or other said jodoh. Apa tu? tak kunjung tiba. Macam tunggu bulan jatuh ke riba. Doa mama hari-hari Amy aminkan. Amin ya Rabbal'alamin..Moga mendapat jodoh yang baik dan suami yang soleh. (nak suami soleh kena la jadi solehah ye tak? InsyaAllah...berusaha dan terus berusaha).
~suka tenung pada bulan, bulan yang sama dilihat oleh 'Fahriku'.

my birthday and new year eve celebration

Happy birthday to me and a happy new year to everybody. Thanks En. Ijan and Kak Lia for the treat at the fish manhattan market at alamanda putrajaya. And thanks all for the wonderful gift t00.

A happy day

abah call,
tak wish birthday pon. lupa kot..hihihi..=P
sweet plan tonight.
wish everything goes well.
=P.
Thanks to all.

Bomba

Aku bukan bomba nak padam api or to clean up the mess aftermath.

~besok kita cakap pasal polis pulak~

you're my addiction

obses dengan kamera itu...
target before June 2010
addicted!!!

Penang Part 1

1431

tahun 1431,
amy berubahlah.......

like it?

marah, dugaan dan rapuhnya imanku

Quote this from my brother in law blog.

Firman Allah:

"Matilah kamu dengan kemarahan kamu itu."
(Ali-'Imran:119)

Ini coretan hati saya.

Saya tidak marah, sebaiknya it is a reality check for me. Saya insaf. Walaupun saya sudah belajar dari pengalaman hidup yang memberi pengajaran besar dalam kehidupan, namun terkadang saya hanyut dibuai arus. Bosan hidup memikirkan orang lain. Made me and ignorance then turn me into the old me again. Saya belajar mengawal nafsu amarah dan benci. Saya tahu jiwa saya rapuh dan lembut walau saya juga tahu terkadang saya berlagak kuat dan kasar just to fake it all.

When she mention that 'Parent' word i realized i started to cry. Honestly, I take what she said without hatred. I must confessed. Cause i knew she was right. For someone like me, knowing that people care and try to fix me for the good, i can accept it well. I must remember this well. this is what she said.

1. Setiap umat yang dirundung dugaan/musibah, perlu meletakkan kembali satu fakta yang asas iaitu Allah tidak akan menduga hambaNya melainkan hambaNya itu mampu menghadapinya dan bantuan Allah pasti akan sampai (dengan izinNya) andainya kita menghadapinya dengan penuh sabar, redha dan tawaddhu’ (merendah diri).

Yang selebih ni aku cari,

2. Setiap ujian yang melanda adalah tanda bahawa kita masih di dalam lingkungan radar kasih sayang Allah. Kenapa? Kerana ini ujian dan dugaan yang diturunkan adalah kifarah bagi dosa-dosa kita. Tengoklah betapa Allah itu Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang.Dahla kita buat dosa, dia pulak bagi kita settle-kan dosa tu dalam cara yang adil. (Dengan izinNya).. Astaghfirullah.. Tapi kenalah kita selalu memohon ampun dan taubat pada Allah. Bila diuji, tingkatlah amal ibadah dan mohon jalan penyelesaian dari Allah.

3. Redha dan bersyukur dengan apa yang dikurniakan Allah kepada kita. Dalam erti kata lain, janganlah kita menyalahkan takdir Allah atas nasib malang yang menimpa kita. Bila diuji, cuba bertenang, ambik nafas dalam2 dan fikir “Susah aku sekarang, ada lagi orang yang lagi susah dari kita. Ada lagi orang yang lebih menderita dari kita. Ada lagi orang yang layak mengalirkankan airmata kepayahan dan penderitaan dari kita. Kenapa kita perlu marah atas ujian Allah yang kecik ni? Bersyukurlah dan hadapi dengan redha.”

Diri ni banyak dosa, masih adakah sekelumit belas dari Allah? Betapa rapuhnya iman ini. Baru di duga sedikit terus berputus asa. Astaghfirullah..
Kini, akan mencuba sebaik mungkin untuk berubah dan menjadi yang terbaik. Walaupun teguran memang pedih untuk diterima tapi bila hati dibuka dan menerima yang nyata, semuanya baik-baik sahaja. Saya elakkan dari memikirkan kenapa perlu dia buat begini? kenapa perlu sebut kisah lama? Pada saya semua tu dah tak penting. Saya lebih bermotivasi. Terima Kasih. Dan saya rasa tercabar for the first time ever, to challenge my self and proove him wrong! saya tulis supaya saya ingat ini.
i'm freezing my facebook and pet society for this weekend. masa rehat dibenarkan. =P
sama-sama kita tingkatkan kualiti diri sebagai insan dan sebagai seorang muslimah. Amin...

booooo...

wadehek la diaorang tu.
like who give the fuck for them? narrow and dirty minded.
g mampos.

PTPTN

i went over ptptn website. huh.. siap formula..heee..bayar jgn tak bayar.

New Moon and Ninja Assasin

Last Sunday, November 29, I forgot it was my abah birthday. I thought it was today, which is Monday. Hmmm...(T.T)

Last Sunday,
I went for movies with Yana.. 2 movies.. Haha.. We watched New Moon at noon and Ninja Assasin at the evening.. Aftermath- i got headache. Heee..

New Moon, I baca paper and the review said kenapa Bella tak cry? hu..kerasnyer hati Bella. Ala-ala psycho gitu. Waaa....nvrmind. I love the part yang Bella hug Jacob. heeee...ting! tong!

Enough on New Moon. Barely saw Edward Cullen, but more of topless Jacob. hehe..

Ninja Assasin. Wow! at first i thought this is really violence. But as the story goes on, i get used to it. When the movie was about t get started. The cinema staff was checking if the were under age sitting in. They were 2 in front of my seat, and they had to leave. Kan dah cakap awal2x under 18 tak bley..Ishhh ishhh..ganas ni. hu...

..double the dot

abah sms "selamat hari raya anak abah" and there was 3 missed calls. urghh tak dgr phone bunyi. I called back. [sigh] No answer.
Anyway selamat hari raya abah..

~bangun tgh mlm nangis tgk mesej ni.. i really miss u abah.~

.

i want to kill that bitch!!!
(x_x)

baju raya haji

sudah menerima bungkusan baju raya dari mama...
kualiti jahitan tak beberapa memuaskan tapi saya terima aja.. =D
lama tau tak buat baju.
beli siap jer banyak haha..
satu baju kurung tu tak der cangkuk pinggang kat kain..haiiihhh kena la menjahit nmpknya..
tak menjahit manik dah.. busy!
baju kebaya yg satu lagi mcm senget2x.. haha kebaya mmg singkat ke? cam pelik jer kebaya tu..
tapi suka...=D

tiada budget utk tudung. hah recycle aja tudung yg ada. itu pun klu ada yg masuk kaler..huhu..
kalau tak masuk? tak yah la pakai tudung.. haha banyak cantik muka aku. cari dosa free jer..

aik cam tak caya je aku ada baju raya haji..hahaaaaaa

Hari ini dan perasaan ini

Hari ni dating dgn Kak Aisyah. Lama tidak berjumpa beliau. Heee..Beliau berjumpa Afina dan memberikan hadiah hari jadi afina iaitu sebuah gown berbunga-bunga kecil ungu. Afina yang baru bangun dari tidur terus menuju ke arah beliau dan bermain dengan seronoknya. Kak Aisyah pasti rasa bahagia. Afina tak memperdulikan auntynya lagi. Haha...
Selesai Afina mandi dan bersiap, ibu dan ayah Afina membawa Afina pergi ke kenduri kahwin. Afina sangat happy dan asyik tersenyum gembira. Heeee...
Setelah itu saya bersama Kak Aisyah meneruskan dating ke Aeon Cheras Balakong. Ngeee.. saya memerlukan sandal baru. Selesai shopping kami makan di restoran makanan Jepun Ichiban Ramen. Kak Aisyah yang membelanja saya. Terima Kasih Kak Aisyah. You such a generous person. We enjoyed our meal. Then we had desert which is ice-cream. I had sour soup ice-cream and Kak Aisyah had this strawberry-pineapple ice-cream. But at the end we changed them with each other.. heeee.. actually i ate both. Thanks again Kak Aisyah. It her's treat too...

So.. although i tgh kecewa ala-ala putus cinta tapi tak pernah bercinta pon haha.. I happy. Tak tahu la boleh happy sampai berapa lama. Masalahnya saya selalu jatuh cinta pada orang yang tak sepatutnya, seperti dalam dialog P/S. I love you. why am i still single? coz my right guy is with the wrong person. Heee...I do not agree 100% though but i like it.

(Jodoh adalah perkara ghaib yang menjadi rahsia Allah, Sebagai manusia, kita hanya boleh berikhtiar dan berdoa. Sudah menjadi janji Allah bahawa semua makhluknya akan berpasang-pasangan. Hanya Allah juga yang maha tahu waktu yang tepat untuk jodoh kita masing-masing. )

me sad

a friend said 'love floods us with hope"
I said "sometimes they even drown you with happiness"
the friend said "sometimes with sadness"

ya, memang betul,
mula2 saya hoping,
lepas tu saya happy,
sekarang saya sedih,
tapi saya akan tetap ingat masa happy.
although all my hope in vain.
tapi, saya pernah rasa yesterday...
saya akan teruskan hidup
sebab saya hanya mahu happy...

Sakit

macam2 perasaan dirasa kebelakangan ni.
sakit, penat, gundah gulana, mengantuk, bengang, marah, sedih dan lain-lain.
dah berusaha utk tidur dgn cukup, tapi tetap tak cergas. (T.T)

next week started on monday banyak job kena settle. Weekend ni nak cycling kat botanical garden bleh tak? nak ambik gambar sana sini. Fall in love with the nature. [sigh] sangat merindukan zaman-zaman free styler. zaman kurus sebenarnya. huk!

jap jap ni mmg nak kurus balik. makan pon tak lalu..huuuuuuuuuuu apakah perasaan ini? sakit tau tak? dugaan..

Dalam perjalanan menjadi seorang intelektual, jatuh sakit termasuk dalam senarai perjalanan.. hehehe...

byk nyer kerja dari Prof dan PZ huk!.